3 posts tagged “blah”

Well, it's Friday, and that's gotta count for something right?

I've been feeling kinda blah lately (not physically blah. Mentally blah). There's a lot of stuff going on at work and school which is weighing on me a bit right now, so I'm not feeling terribly peppy at the moment. Well, actually with work it's the lack of things going on that's the problem. I've been stuck on this one issue for a while now. One of our customers is having a problem I can't reproduce no matter how hard I try, even if I duplicate their setup exactly. I'm not sure what's wrong, how to fix it or how to even work around it because of the restrictions in place with their particular setup. And they're starting to get a little impatient. I also can't really ask anyone else because I'm the only person who deals with this sort of stuff here.

So I'm stuck. Which is really frustrating for me because I should know the answer and I should be able to fix it, but I can't. This doesn't really help my issue that I discussed earlier about feeling like this isn't what I'm really supposed to be doing. I feel like I'm in over my head or something, I guess would be the best way to describe it.

School is being a pain too because I'm still behind a bit on my project but I'm going to spend more time this weekend to get it going again. I find it really hard to get home from work and jump right into working on another thing I really don't want to do. And my frustration with all of this has caused me to deviate a bit from my weight loss plan, which is totally my fault and I'm jumping back on as of today, but I haven't done any exercise this week at all because I haven't felt that I had the energy.

Oh well...onwards to happier news. Syracuse won their game last night in the NIT Tournament which means they get to play one more home game on Tuesday before they head out to Madison Square Garden (if they win anyway). I'm going to this one alone because my dad has a doctors appointment thingy and I had assumed since the only other people I'd consider asking (Wassy and Jay) don't like sports that they wouldn't be interested. As it turns out I was wrong on that last count after I bought my ticket because Wassy said she would have gone with me. Bah! Noted for the next time this comes up.

This weekend isn't looking terribly fun for me though. I need to spend a lot of time working on my project for school to prevent myself from becoming pushed farther behind. I basically have 4 weeks to finish up the whole deal now and I want to get back on top of things before they totally spiral out of control. I'll be very glad when all of this is over.

I'm experiencing a feeling of general blah and disinterest today, for unknown reasons. Not sure why, I just don't feel like getting anything accomplished.

First off, an update about my car. Took it into the dealer on Tuesday and they said that the airbag control computer is busted, so they had to overnight a new one in. Apparently overnight in car mechanic speak means something different from what it means in other circles. They called me yesterday and left a message on my cell phone to call them back, but I guess it was just a survey to see how my visit went and not the fact that the parts were in. I only discovered this after calling back the service department (because nobody was ever at the number they left on my voice mail) and asking. Really hoping I didn't annoy the guy. I can understand parts taking longer due to the fact it's a brand new car and things aren't quite as widely available yet.

Then onwards to school talk. I'm trying to coordinate my final project with my professor/sponsor guy and he seems to be as clueless about the whole process as I am. I need to get his authorization to sign up for the course and I asked him about it and he basically told me to ask the department secretary (???) without actually telling me how to contact her. I'm not terribly surprised since this guy was (still is actually although I try to avoid him if at all possible) my advisor and, in the words of ratemyprofessors.com, "It's obvious he has tenure"

Added to that, things didn't go terribly well with my planned activities last night (and I'll refer you to Wassy's blog post here on that) and I'm just feeling exhausted again.

Hopefully the long weekend will offer some recharging potential.

I need to write this up now because if I don't, I'm going to start thinking that I really shouldn't be saying anything in public. Moment of weakness, here we go!

Warning: If you don't really care about personal feelings than you might want to skip reading the rest of this.

I've been feeling very...blah the past couple days. I'm not sure if I'd go so far as to say depressed, but it feels like it's in that general area of blah-ness. I'm not entirely sure why either. Maybe it's because I feel like I'm in over my head in a lot of things, like schoolwork.

Especially this desktop publishing class. I have a feeling I'm setting myself up for failure on this one because I'm spending a lot more time concentrating on western civ. I'm not a design guy...and the class seems more geared towards the artsy types, so I'm having a hard time with the concepts that he seems to assume everybody knows. I'm probably going to talk with the instructor about it later.

Then there's socially, which I really don't feel like getting into on a public forum, but...blah.

And all this is tacked onto my growing dissatisfaction with my job and where I'm generally at in life right now.

I'm just not doing very well at the moment, I think. Maybe it'll pass. It has before, but it seems like I've been spending more and more time recently feeling blah. I've come to the conclusion that I'm not really happy most of the time, instead moving from one island of happiness to another in a sea of "blah".

Ok...I think that's quite enough about that.